It has been almost 3 months since I updated this little journal of mine. I have decided to write here from now on, a place for me to share my ups and downs, instead of having them on my secret Tumblr. I guess there is not a single reader left reading this site. Well, unless you are super duper loyal. Stalker I shall say.

So, I was missing in action from time to time within these three months. Because there are seriously a whole lot of bloody things that happened, I see changes in myself – mentally, and emotionally. Pessimistic is the only word to describe myself. I can no longer be the happy-go-lucky girl, the kind of silly girl who will forget things the next moment like a goldfish. I hate my current self, and I have no idea how am I supposed to pull myself up again if this continues.

Of course, I am not going to write a chuck of post on what exactly happened. I will go crazy and cry out half way writing them. Everything shall be kept to myself, for I-don’t-trust-people could be one of the main reasons.

Putting aside all those depressing shyt, I still have UTs to worry about. I am only left with less than a week for revision. I hope my level of understanding can increase instantly and nothing will ruin my revision plan. First, Ineedsomemotivationtostudy!

Alright, I’m rushing out to grandma’s birthday dinner now. Uncle’s car is already downstairs waiting. It’s not good to let people wait. If you know me well, I’ll rather you let me wait for you. Don’t take advantage of me because of that okay! K, dad is rushing me to shut down too. Bye, for the day!

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn’t supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You’ll have your heart broken & you’ll break others’ hearts. You’ll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, & you’ll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, & love like you’ve never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. You just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you & tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone’s hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, & smile until your face hurts. Don’t be afraid to take chances or fall in love & most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

Yesterday was Sophia’s advanced birthday celebration. Our surprise plan was not entirely a success. Next time we gonna tape up yawen’s mouth so that she won’t spill out that the special guest is a male instead of female. But its okay since Sophia more or less guessed that the guest is Jonathan. And I’m sure we had a lot of fun describing Jonathan as a female, haha!

Darling, I hope you enjoyed yourself. Big cake ordered by yawen and decorated by gfs (Y) and big card which I spent the night doing it. Happy 18^th Birthday!

And I love spending time with you girls at the void deck. Time files even if we did not do anything much. ♥ gfs.

Celebration @ Starbucks

Itadakimasu!

As usual, toilet!

Candid by jonathan.

yunru went off early! nevermind, we can cut and paste your head.

yawen lose twice!

 Love this picture of sop and jonathan (Y) 

A shopping spree ended up to be an ice cream day. Darling, I'm craving for haagen dazs, ben & jerry, island creamery and andersen's.. I'm addicted to ice cream, omg. Fattening, yet tempting. Eating ice cream really does make me happier. I don't know why. Did they add some happy pills inside? haha!

COLD ROCK COLD ROCK COLD ROCK

Choco mint + cheesecake ice-cream with topping of malteser + brownie + violet crumble.

MARVELOUS CREAM

Green tea ice-cream, our fav! The best green tea ice cream we eat before is from Azabu Sabu (Y)

Celebrated darling yunru’s birthday on last Friday. I was honoured enough to be able to date her on her actual birdy day! Her first time was given to me, (Sophia don’t jealous ah, LOL.):

• First time eating cake with one finger.
• First time blowing a candle without flame.
• First time having a combination of vodka with cake.

I’m sorry I didn’t prepare anything special or surprise in advance. Still, I hope you really enjoy your night. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GF ♥!

Umeshu (梅酒)

This bowl is uber big. Bigger than your head, LOL.

Fav dessert!

I’ve been finding excuses for not working. But in the actual fact, I’m mugging really hard for this UT 1. Programming makes my head big. The moment I see those codes, I feel like running away. 3 more weeks left for assignment to be done. I’m counting down everyday. Very stressful, I have not even started a single thing yet. And I’m really worried about it. Me having gastric everyday is nothing surprising. And is definitely getting more serious each day. What if someday I don’t have a bunch of schoolmates to walk to the station with me, and I can’t make it home with this gastric? I’m scared, sick and tired of it already.

Dinner with Karen and Jolene. I really love hanging out with them because there are always endless topics to talk about. And yesterday we talked about marriage issues which are really interesting. You wouldn’t have imagined that the guy you meet before marriage will have a 360 degree change 10 years later.
 
Thanks Karen! For always treating us dinner and drinking whenever we meet. We had our dinner twice at two restaurants. I was horribly full, haha!

13 May is the actual day of my birthday. Thanks to technology, I am able to receive a lot of wishes through sms, facebook (more than 150 wishes which i reply until crazyyyyy), msn, calls and etc! I feel so blessed, (Y)! I had eaten 6 cakes already. If i see anymore cakes, I think I'm going to run and faint, LOL.

I also received a lot of surprises, especially from the 米修米修 girls – Jovina, Daphne, Rui Han and Wanyi. We partial-ed because the girls wanted to celebrate for me. Really sweet of them to book me super in advanced. Thanks girls! I love you, haha (L)!

#05: DEAREST!

Saw Felice when I partial-ed, so we took this chance for webcammy! (:

I have already celebrated 4 advanced birthdays before the actual day, which is tomorrow. This is the first time so many people are celebrating it with me. I’m glad that so many of them are making an effort to make it memorable. Thanks! I’m really touched.

#01: Yihan & Jolin!

Thanks girls! They insisted to celebrate it for me a week in advanced. Laughters all the way because Jolin is always the joker, HAHA!

#02: GIRLFRIENDS!

Sakura on that day! And surprises from darling yawen and sop. Seriously, I was shocked! There were no signs that they will celebrate it for me. Celebrated yr and my advanced birthday on that day. ♥ you girls ttm!

#03: SINYING!

Ten Ahying, thanks for coming over to my class with this tiramisu! I didn't expect that you will buy cake for me. THANKS CRAZYMADGIRL! ♥ the ring.

(very difficult to get jo to take photo with us)

#04: E66G (EGGG!)

Totally unexpected to receive a strawberry shortcake from my new classmates. I'm touched, reallyyyyyy! Thanks jh, jl and ber for making an effort to travel down to cwp to get this cake. Thanks guys and the rest of the classmates!